It Won’t Work
They recommended I start replacing “what if” with “even if”
At first, it felt useless, pointless, futile
But on the first day I tried, I was surprised
It was more powerful than I had imagined
Unfortunately, it had an expiration date
The method no longer works for me
“What if” and “even if” now bear the same destructive weight
I can’t bear it anymore, what should I do?
Even if the deadline looms closer, I no longer feel the urgency to speed things up
Even if I miss the deadline, I feel no guilt anymore
Even if I skip the moments I thought I’d enjoy, I won’t regret them
Even if I lose myself again, I won’t feel bothered, I’ve made peace with it
Is it just me who finds it easier to give up?
Is it just me who’s lost hope for the decades, still trying to deny the truth?
Is it just me, diving into the sea of the past, unable to move forward?
Is it just me … who’s lost all interest in the things I once loved?
