The Endless War Within
At first, I thought that once I conquered my fears, they would never return. I believed that facing them once would make them easier to handle — that they would lose their grip on my life.
But I was wrong. Triggers are everywhere, lurking in the shadows, waiting to ambush me without warning. They strike whenever they please, disrupting my life without my permission. What a cruel game.
It was foolish to think this was a one-way journey. The truth is, it’s a continuous battle — one that doesn’t simply end with a single victory. The monsters inside me don’t give up easily. They have a thousand ways to creep back in, to exploit my weaknesses, to press the trigger when I least expect it.
Every little gap, every moment of vulnerability — they seize it. They know I’m not truly ready. They know I’ve been pretending all day. I fight so hard to keep the storm from growing, but in the end, I fail. Again, again, and again.
I’m exhausted. This cycle keeps repeating, trapping me in its relentless loop. It feels like I’ve lost control, like I’m merely a puppet to my own fears. I know I need to break free — to remind myself that I am the one in control. But how?
The reality is, it’s not as easy as it sounds. Doubts flood my mind, filling every empty space with self-destruction. And so, I ask myself:
How do I find the courage to face them?
How do I win this battle?
How do I end it — once and for all?
Is that even possible?
Please, tell me ….
